Germinating or buried or forgotten memories

February 28 squally showers
I do not know where to start, depressed mood the past few days I feel suffocated, but also makes my lack of energy, a long low mood, Chafanbusi, no country can be sure that even so, I still would like to thank a person, perhaps
quiet mind seemed to be awakened from the deep, pulled from the abyss of all kinds of reality, but for this broken heart not only brought hope, more erase the impression, like the pain of non-pain touched my entire heart, the Central Standing Committee emerged in my mind that scene, no one knows, only I know ... I'd rather nothing happened, nothing will totally see or be remove from the minds of the end! But these circumstances, but such mark as engraved in my apex ~ ~ ~
stirring the heart ......
long time no moment like the impulse to the fountain in my mind, precisely because of that very in a short span of four years, so that was buried for a long time, the cold once again stirring the heart, but I understand the desire to care about what the original is
continue to bury ...???
people tend to be plagued by this kind of emotion, and now I am experienced in the past by the way, for me, has reached a pole (do not know what the future); can not face themselves, unable to face the volatility of the emotions, can not face the ...... more recent days and nights are often wondering about many things thoughtfully, often ask themselves is not a failure, regardless of learning, life, communication, emotion and so on, God has given everyone a lot of opportunities, including me, but I leave behind is eleven, and I own it, they can not grasp their own feelings, or I do not know how to put a sincere feeling to other people, so the final total and ask yourself the heart continue to sprout, or continue to be buried, is a good memory or a forgotten memory of all this good?! No can be answered, including myself do not know ~ ~ ~
immersed in the memory in a long time, I started to become not love words, do not love things, not love playing, do not love humor! heart is so empty, really like to forget, out of this Section ... ... I am exhausted, ! I need ... need ... really need ...

out with the next rain Xilihuala, sometimes big, sometimes small, have been very like the rain, I am born a Pisces, but now feel a hint of the bleak, do not know from where ... Spring 2007 and did not give me what kind of laughter, too much can be achieved is not reached and the simple desire!
sometimes really hate their weak and incompetent, to give not
If I were just a bird, can in the blue sky carefree, free to fly ......